28 Jan 2015

Everyday

Hello again,
 
Two posts for today.
 
For the first one, I am combining the ScrapAfrica challenge (one little word) with CSI Case CC-4.
 
 
Here is what I worked on yesterday.
 
 
Scheme : Check
Evidence : stripes, silver metal, numbers (stamp), hearts, glitter, texture paste
Testimony : I used the IW overcome and celebrate
 
My journaling is tucked behind the cluster, on the blue pull-out piece on the right:
 
My word for this year is Everyday.  It’s going to be QUITE a journey each day trying to pick up the broken pieces of my heart and my life.  I feel in my heart that all will come right eventually.
On most days, I am so overcome by emotion that I battle to take deep breaths.  I go from being utterly shattered, to optimistic, to lonely, to devastation.  In minutes - my emotions run amok.
I am trying very, very hard to celebrate your life.  Your wonderful, awesome life.  I have had a party to celebrate your birthday recently - all our friends were here with me and it was wonderful being surrounded and cocooned by their love.  Mostly, it was wonderful because my strongest connection to you is when I am with them.
This journey is going to be rough, rocky and for the most part, completely unpredictable.  I don’t know where I am and what I’m going to do - or SUPPOSED to do - next.
I can’t plan ahead, because I don’t know where my next set of emotions will take me.  I have never felt so utterly fragile and useless in my entire life.
I know that I have a strength inside me that has yet to present itself in its proper form.  I know that it is fighting to get out - but I am blocking it, albeit inadvertently.  I don’t know how to unleash it.  I think it’s because I don’t really want to accept that you are gone.
Every day I thank God for Isabella.  Were it not for her, I don’t know where I’d be now .... Perhaps in an institution with drool hanging from my mouth.
Even though you are not here in your physical form, I know in my heart that I will eventually feel your constant presence as I start a new life, a new journey without you.
I miss you.  I love you.  Forever.
 
And now for some close-ups.


I used my glitz glitter bottles to doodle - you can't see it much in these photographs, but it has added such gorgeous sparkle to the piece.
 

 
Little wooden hearts, which I coloured with fineliner khoki pens.



 
I had to add the little Bluebird - because Isabella is our Bluebird!  The gauze piece is actually a leftover bit I cut off a tiny tapestry that Isabella received for Christmas (us scrappers, we keep EVERYTHING!!)

 
Chippie title which I just inked using a pearlised wheat colour.

 
Hope.  Another word which will ring true in my life going forward.

 
Here you can see the numbers in the stamp I used.  As well as more "doodles" with my glitz glitter.

 
The chippie frame was inked with silver and then I also used some more silver glitz on it.

 
Thanks for popping by.
 


9 comments:

  1. This is gorgeous, Lisa-Marie. I love the colour combo and doodling. Thank you for sharing with us at Scrap Africa.
    You are in my thoughts constantly and I pray that you will find the strength you need to live the new life you need to start building now. You are a strong, independent woman and you are surrounded by love from those near you as well as people you have never met. Sending you love and hugs. xxx

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  2. Another beautiful and completely heart wrenching layout. Love the design and the background is gorgeous but of course it is your words that makes it. <3

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  3. Beautiful, heartbreaking...but I am sure that with each of these pieces of art you are becoming whole again xx

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  4. Another gorgeous page!! Your words are so powerful!!

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  5. A stunning heart-felt page! Thank you for sharing a part of your journey with us at Scrap Africa :)

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  6. A stunning and beautiful page Lisa-Marie! Such a special photo of the 2 girls too! I can't even begin to imagine your loss and your journalling is just so honest and amazing. Every step every day...will be a step closer to healing and destinations unknown....
    My prayers and thoughts are with you both...so that everyday may be a new gift!! xx Thanks so much for sharing with us at Scrap Africa! ;-)

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  7. Beautiful photo, Lisa-Marie!
    Sweet work!

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  8. Gorgeous page!!
    Love the background!mis stunning!!!
    Thanks for playing with us at Scrap Africa!!
    Xoxo

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  9. Wow, oh wow! Look at all of those layers - gorgeous!! Stunning layout! Thanks for sharing and playing along with us at Scrap Africa!

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