Two posts for today.
Here is what I worked on yesterday.
Scheme : Check
Evidence : stripes, silver metal, numbers (stamp), hearts, glitter, texture paste
Testimony : I used the IW overcome and celebrate
My journaling is tucked behind the cluster, on the blue pull-out piece on the right:
My word for this year is Everyday. It’s going to be QUITE a journey each day trying to pick up the broken pieces of my heart and my life. I feel in my heart that all will come right eventually.
On most days, I am so overcome by emotion that I battle to take deep breaths. I go from being utterly shattered, to optimistic, to lonely, to devastation. In minutes - my emotions run amok.
I am trying very, very hard to celebrate your life. Your wonderful, awesome life. I have had a party to celebrate your birthday recently - all our friends were here with me and it was wonderful being surrounded and cocooned by their love. Mostly, it was wonderful because my strongest connection to you is when I am with them.
This journey is going to be rough, rocky and for the most part, completely unpredictable. I don’t know where I am and what I’m going to do - or SUPPOSED to do - next.
I can’t plan ahead, because I don’t know where my next set of emotions will take me. I have never felt so utterly fragile and useless in my entire life.
I know that I have a strength inside me that has yet to present itself in its proper form. I know that it is fighting to get out - but I am blocking it, albeit inadvertently. I don’t know how to unleash it. I think it’s because I don’t really want to accept that you are gone.
Every day I thank God for Isabella. Were it not for her, I don’t know where I’d be now .... Perhaps in an institution with drool hanging from my mouth.
Even though you are not here in your physical form, I know in my heart that I will eventually feel your constant presence as I start a new life, a new journey without you.
I miss you. I love you. Forever.
And now for some close-ups.
I used my glitz glitter bottles to doodle - you can't see it much in these photographs, but it has added such gorgeous sparkle to the piece.
Little wooden hearts, which I coloured with fineliner khoki pens.
I had to add the little Bluebird - because Isabella is our Bluebird! The gauze piece is actually a leftover bit I cut off a tiny tapestry that Isabella received for Christmas (us scrappers, we keep EVERYTHING!!)
Chippie title which I just inked using a pearlised wheat colour.
Hope. Another word which will ring true in my life going forward.
Here you can see the numbers in the stamp I used. As well as more "doodles" with my glitz glitter.
The chippie frame was inked with silver and then I also used some more silver glitz on it.
Thanks for popping by.